Utopia : The Land of My Soul
Monday, August 14, 2006
Growing up
I have left the habit of sulking over trifle,
I have finally grown up a bit.
Don't think it came easily to me
Without any dear cost.
A great many things have been brutally at stake,
A great many painfully lost.
But one thing is for sure, I have never
Learnt to bother being tough.
Sometimes at leisure I do ponder
What does growing up really mean?
Is it to be pragmatic and end up
Butchering softer emotions?
Or is it being sensibly sensitive to all
The problems, inhibitions and pretentions?
But a ripened brain doesn't feel like
Answering an inkling.
I have seen people camouflaging the own self,
Breeding a new personality to project.
So it does become mandatory to put on
Masks in public,
Smile the way you do charity, and
Talk gingerly like a wise fool.
I have learnt not to dare to show up any sentiments,
You are brazened if you open up.
If this is all about growing what people trem as "matured",
I definitely don't want to become one.
To let go off peace, security and innocence I don't want to lie
Couched in their suffocative coffins.
I don't want to breathe in polluted air while clamouring for
Oxygen to get me going.
Living without vitality, warmth, tabooing altruism and live serenely selfish
Can be a masochist's pleasure dome not mine!
But how can I ever claim to the world that I'm fully grown up ,
Without being a member of the herd?
Labels: Looking back
4 Comments:
Dear Amu,
The challenge is to become worldly wise, and not world-weary, n'est-ce pas? Cool blog!
@wild reeds
Thanx for giving an honest remark. Ya that's why i questioned what it makes to become worldly wise. Its kind of rebellious to the worldly conventions
The objective of life is to fight maturity. (I forgot who said that.)
This growing up, I guess, includes morderating ourselves in accpeting the half-measures dished out to us by the society, in exchange of the security and gurantee it offers.
But of course, the only ones who really contribute to the society are the ones who still have some part of the immature child left in them. Its only the fresh immature mind which can see clearly through, without the filter of 'knowledge'. The roles of the 'matured' population is just passive - just to be supportive.
I'll share in one hypothesis of mine: If, to a question of a 8 year old, you can give a reply/explaination that will satisfy the 8-year-old, you and a 40-year-old, you know you have the right answer. If not, think deeper - you might be missing something important.
u don't have to try so hard. just be urself and u'll not realize when u've grown up!
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